lol i crack my shit up

( Banana-flavored condoms as tools of behavioral conditioning. Eat that, Pavlov. )

Also, I know I've been posting a lot these last few weeks.  This is because: one, I talk a lot anyway no seriously it's pretty amazing sometimes, and two, because my dissertation is wringing the life out of me but I don't feel like reading much escapism!fic and I feel guilty trying to write it and gah, I'm sure this all makes sense somewhere.  And I know how I want to end Eir's Tomorrow now except I'm afraid of disappointing people and so I intimidate myself, which means I put off writing and I know that irritates people because I get messages asking what the hold up is, and then I feel guilty all over again and it's all a VICIOUS CYCLE of VICIOUSNESS.  And it's been like three years since I actually participated in this fandom outside writing my own fic and I don't know what's going on anymore Out There and I'm all like DDD:    WHY NO I'M NOT NEUROTIC WHY WOULD YOU EVEN ASK.

/woe